One month on CPAP. I hate the thing and it hasn’t improved my sleep. I made a recording using Sleep As Android and I’m still snoring a bit. I am waiting to get an appointment with the actual specialist who ordered my sleep test and prescribed CPAP- I’ve never met him, and am not sure I ever would have met him if I hadn’t melted down a little when the ResMed drone said that my numbers are excellent and that “studies show” that most people adjust within six weeks. Well, I’m not a number, I’m a neurodivergent individual with individual needs and quoting study results at me does not help or reassure.
I know I’ll die with student loan debt, because I dropped out of college after four and a half years, never have had a decent job, and finally moved to another country without leaving a forwarding address. They found me once after I filed an absentee ballot, then I moved again. Welp, guess I can’t vote in the US anymore.
However, I refuse to be held back for life because of contracts I signed when I was 18 and too stupid to know what I was getting into. I didn’t even want to go to college but my mom made me.
The whole thing is ridiculous and stupid and it sucks that the way I took is the only way out, as most don’t have the option to leave the country and never come back.