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Cake day: August 1st, 2023

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  • I had a psychiatrist send me off with the helpful suggestion to start working out, I was a lifeguard and literally had to work out to keep my job. He also told me I couldn’t have ADHD because I’d graduated high school, without checking if I actually had. Like I did, but he just assumed that. The kid who showed up twice a week and turned in work never also graduated. My school had an excellent graduation rate, just ignore all the people who graduated unable to read past a 5 year old level.

    I’m still undiagnosed, though not for lack of trying. One doc wanted me to stop literally every medication I was on for like an entire month “to get a baseline”, and when I refused he prescribed me something I couldn’t take anyway, and I never went back. I’m chronically ill, that would literally land me in the hospital.


  • Great job being the sucky books. You completely nailed it and proved why this post exists by saying the same obnoxious things I’ve heard 5,000 times. I have an incurable chronic illness, that wall ain’t crumbling anytime soon short of a major advance in medical science. If I’m too exhausted to get to the toilet without help, how am I supposed to push through that?? Oh wait, I’ve tried pushing through that, you wanna guess what happens? I pass out, fun times.

    The sad reality is people like you making assumptions about why someone they do not know is struggling. You are telling me I need to do something that is physically impossible. So yeah, saying it is easier than doing it when it can’t be done. I push through so much crap, an absurd amount of it, but when I hit my breaking point I stop. Pushing through has caused me more harm than good. And then people like you come along and tell me I “just have to push through”. NO! I’m gonna stick to respecting my body enough to listen to what it’s telling me.



  • Exactly. Like I have to ignore a lot of pain constantly, but that’s cause I live with chronic pain 24/7/365. So if I want to do anything with my life I have to deal with it when it’s manageable. But when it passes my threshold I am out. Done, I need to rest, take a break, meds, nap, etc. And then I get shamed by people “for not being able to handle a little pain”, even though I’m in more pain every day than many people have ever been in.








  • I’m actually on propranolol, and have tried buspirone. The propranolol puts a slight damper on my anxiety which is nice. The buspirone just didn’t work. It kinda helped, but I’m talking like a 2% improvement, and just made me feel really weird. I hope I can find meds too, but first I need to find a new doc. All hail US “health” insurance. I don’t really mind all that much cause I was planning to look for a new doc anyway cause she didn’t listen.

    Like when I started the prozac and was listing off all the effects it caused I listed off like 20 bad things (no appetite, no motivation to do literally anything, feeling emotionally dead…), and one bad thing with a teeny tiny not really at all positive twist, as in “Instead of having a couple short panic attacks a day and then it’s over, I’m being held on the edge of a panic attack for hours and the only thing I can feel is complete and utter terror and dread until I finally pass out from exhaustion”. And she replied “Oh, that’s good”. 🤬 No it’s not!!! I’d rather have the panic attack, meltdown, and be done, than sit on couch for hours completely terrified but unable to even cry. I wouldn’t wish that on my worst enemy and I hate my mother.





  • Yeah, it was nice for like the first four days it stopped the panic attacks, cause panic attacks are exhausting, but then it just started to suck cause not caring about literally anything is awful. And then my doc tried to convince me that this wasn’t a side effect, but actually showing I needed a higher dose. Yeah four days of a higher dose and zero food beyond the minimum necessary for my meds I started to taper off it. Cause panic attacks suck, but feeling emotionally dead is worse. Which is why I get tapering instructions upfront now, especially after one doctors office took over three weeks to get back to me about how to safely come off a med causing me severe side effects. By which point I had turned to Google out of desperation and was completely off of it. Apparently I didn’t do it right and should’ve done it over the course of almost a month. Like IDK, maybe if it didn’t take you almost a month to get back to me??